Why am I drawn to circumvent this association
We know by another name
Given the longevity of this bond one could say
It would be unwise
I beg to differ
For no matter how long something exists
When it defies its definition, it’s rendered useless
And to only exist for the title and selfish benefits one reaps
Is a far more atrocious notion
I’ve begun to wonder about you
And it pains me
To think that I’ve become a tool
Instead of a treasured possession
But rest assured
I don’t place all blame for this division
On you alone
I understand
Physical separation
Clocks without sync
My own lack of response
But on
I drift from sight
Vanishing like smoke in a gentle breeze
Joyous at the thought of removing myself
From the eyes of those unneeded ones
Alas, I am burdened
by thoughts of loss
Overwhelmed by the faces of those
My mind exiled
They deserved not that sentence
But its the final verdict
There's no going back
Turning my blindside to the friendships
I never wished to obtain
Regardless of sentiment.
That die hard phrase
"It's not you it's me"
Could never be any less than fact
I've craved isolation and new surroundings
for so many years
That denial would equal damnation
So I extend this to
The relinquished few
That carried a pie
Have you ever been apart of something
you couldn't explain
Lost in the unknown
Most would be apprehensive
Shaking at the very idea of embracing
the mysterious
I laugh at their weakness
Preferring to dive head first
into that sea of ignorance
Taking control of that situation
Mercilessly dissecting the unexplained
To satisfy my curiosity
Allowing myself to become victim
to consequence
Weather desirable or loathed
I confide in the blindside
Allowing the curiousness
To roam free
Driven to the edge of sanity
You coax me to enlightenment
Pulling me to that sweet insanity
You wrap me in devious excitement
To eliminate the lack
of that muscle sack
That few would label a heart
To relinquish the pain
from those many stains
That riddle the path to the start
of our immaculate adventure
Traveled with tenure
Into the midst of that astral plain
Battling together
To destroy the sane.
A soul trapped
in proximity to chaos
Dancing on the toes of madness
Subjected to the misery
of society's hatred
She fights to break her bondage
Eradicating the mold
That she was told
To always remain in
Her luminous soul
Battered and cold
Triumphs the harbingers of sin
As long as she defies
Those general lies
That question the true self within
She'll trigger the change
Within the sane
Creating the acceptance
of her sweet Delirium
Loving the hatred, that
Guards the sacred
Love in the hater's heart
Hating the love
Stated above, which
Expresses itself in the dark
The tormented and praised
Combined in ways
Blind to the paradox
Deaf to the general say
This is lovers insanity
Living within the enigma
of selfish and selfless
Hiding behind the ambiguity
of the hearts true self
The satisfaction of truth, eternally
Accompanied by deciefering the lies
Releases the sanity into your lover's
False eyes
Once blind you all will see
That true love
is pure insanity
Servering the dreaded complilation
of thoughts
Deeply rooted with the unnecessary
The uselessness
That once governed the actions
of one impulsive soul
Tormented by the travesty
of that existence
One blindly quests for the retribution
They believe is deserved
This flawed plan
Creating nothing but disarray
Convinces that young soul
Into eradicating the memories
Perceived to Star in the creation
of those ill instincts
I often wonder about you all
So consumed by your unnecessary need
Relinquishing your promises
Sacrificing your consideration
To benefit the greed
That selfish need to have
What you want, to do
As you please
I wonder about you,
And I'm tickled
By your imminent failure
You seem to hold dear
This maleficent demeanor
Governing your journey to the grave
I never wonder about you
Your disgusting behavior
Lining my nerves with acid
My mind swarming with images
Of ripping myself asunder
Strangling you with my entrails
You're like a siren
Luring weary travelers in
With temptations no man can refuse
Removing their soul from their
Why am I drawn to circumvent this association
We know by another name
Given the longevity of this bond one could say
It would be unwise
I beg to differ
For no matter how long something exists
When it defies its definition, it’s rendered useless
And to only exist for the title and selfish benefits one reaps
Is a far more atrocious notion
I’ve begun to wonder about you
And it pains me
To think that I’ve become a tool
Instead of a treasured possession
But rest assured
I don’t place all blame for this division
On you alone
I understand
Physical separation
Clocks without sync
My own lack of response
But on
I drift from sight
Vanishing like smoke in a gentle breeze
Joyous at the thought of removing myself
From the eyes of those unneeded ones
Alas, I am burdened
by thoughts of loss
Overwhelmed by the faces of those
My mind exiled
They deserved not that sentence
But its the final verdict
There's no going back
Turning my blindside to the friendships
I never wished to obtain
Regardless of sentiment.
That die hard phrase
"It's not you it's me"
Could never be any less than fact
I've craved isolation and new surroundings
for so many years
That denial would equal damnation
So I extend this to
The relinquished few
That carried a pie
Have you ever been apart of something
you couldn't explain
Lost in the unknown
Most would be apprehensive
Shaking at the very idea of embracing
the mysterious
I laugh at their weakness
Preferring to dive head first
into that sea of ignorance
Taking control of that situation
Mercilessly dissecting the unexplained
To satisfy my curiosity
Allowing myself to become victim
to consequence
Weather desirable or loathed
I confide in the blindside
Allowing the curiousness
To roam free
Driven to the edge of sanity
You coax me to enlightenment
Pulling me to that sweet insanity
You wrap me in devious excitement
To eliminate the lack
of that muscle sack
That few would label a heart
To relinquish the pain
from those many stains
That riddle the path to the start
of our immaculate adventure
Traveled with tenure
Into the midst of that astral plain
Battling together
To destroy the sane.
A soul trapped
in proximity to chaos
Dancing on the toes of madness
Subjected to the misery
of society's hatred
She fights to break her bondage
Eradicating the mold
That she was told
To always remain in
Her luminous soul
Battered and cold
Triumphs the harbingers of sin
As long as she defies
Those general lies
That question the true self within
She'll trigger the change
Within the sane
Creating the acceptance
of her sweet Delirium
Loving the hatred, that
Guards the sacred
Love in the hater's heart
Hating the love
Stated above, which
Expresses itself in the dark
The tormented and praised
Combined in ways
Blind to the paradox
Deaf to the general say
This is lovers insanity
Living within the enigma
of selfish and selfless
Hiding behind the ambiguity
of the hearts true self
The satisfaction of truth, eternally
Accompanied by deciefering the lies
Releases the sanity into your lover's
False eyes
Once blind you all will see
That true love
is pure insanity
Servering the dreaded complilation
of thoughts
Deeply rooted with the unnecessary
The uselessness
That once governed the actions
of one impulsive soul
Tormented by the travesty
of that existence
One blindly quests for the retribution
They believe is deserved
This flawed plan
Creating nothing but disarray
Convinces that young soul
Into eradicating the memories
Perceived to Star in the creation
of those ill instincts
Tragedy
Who can we point our fingers at this time?
Follow me
Follow me
Angel with a heart of pure gold
Stay with me
Always, Angel.
Angel, stay with me
I never thought I'd be pleading
I never thought you would leave me
Crawl away
Get back here
Listen now, I love you
Wake up, Wake up, Wake up,
You're immortal
Wake up, Wake up, Wake up,
You're immortal
I'm pleading to the sky
I'm pleading to the sky
Grass is green
Sky is blue
So unusual, without you
Summertime, Summertime
Is an ice age in my mind
Stay with me, always,
Angel, Angel,
Stay with me
I never thought I'd be pleading
I never thought you'd be leaving
Crawl a
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For any of you who watch me (creepers) You'd noticed I've been putting up some literature (obviously) I'd like to let you guys know because if your taking the time to read this then you must actually care about my literature (and I love you for it ^.^) Once I reach 50 submissions I'm going to write 50 more and not submit them. I'm going to take everything and get it published into a book. When that happens I'll post another journal about how you can acquire it. I won't be submitting those other 50 poems. EVER. Once I write some more I may put a few up here. But I'll be aiming for another book.
Thanks for reading.
Alright so I pretty much failed at meeting my goal...but I'm not worried about it.
New poem up called Dementia I think its pretty sweet so go check it out. Hopefully with my new state of mind I'll be able to sit down and write a few more and keep filling up my dA
Much love
Zom
OK well a few things have happened with me in the past few months.....college.....girlfriend.......WRITER'S BLOCK ugh as usual. but I'm currently motivated to add and add so I'm working on a ten poem addition hopefully done by the end of October with a special Halloween piece....why not right.
Not that to many people will read this any way...I just feel like having my goal written done
I failed. every day. As my message on yahoo said. It hurts every time I hear you tell me to never talk to you again. That you don't want to hear from me. and each time you come back. It hurts. If you didn't mean it then it shouldn't be said so freely?